week eighty five >> "Gesture"

Cec darlin,


With love, longing, slight frustration, tired calmness, and ever present gratitude I send these thoughts to you.
(my computer, working fine, then I go to attempt blog, and something new overtakes the screen... Directing me once again to this tiny phone screen ;)

My gesture this week, this month, this year - Intensity 
- the knight of Fire.  The turn of the calendar along with my return to work, after this long semester injury break, has my heart and mind and body pumping.  I've had a few restless nights too, as the pump turned toward anxiety.  From the most intense moments of this feeling, I turned to the Zen tarot for navigation tools... I pulled a dynamic spread, my first time, using the Celtic key layout.  The Knight of Fire showed himself as the Key to the issue, and I am heeding the guidance. Taking  each task into my arrows flame.  This attitude is helping me, because the anxiety is still present, bubbling.  The gesture of intensity is helping me use it, and not be afraid of it, at least when I'm in intensity.  If Im in anxiety, intensity leads me through.

I've loved reading your thoughts in the past week - ive felt connected to your thought world through your sharings.  Im so glad you made the space to return to the yIppee page and express some of your outpour of thoughts there... Its soo good o release what is known to need releasing.  I spent new Years Eve in a torrent of tears, followed by a chant dance to the moon.  New years Day was a beautiful, mountain filled time as we took the kids hunting for snow up the Angeles Crest.  Thus, my creation of the week picture - Gould family snowman 2012!

Love you, talk to you soon
-J.

Ps. Your drawing is beautifully multi-faceted.

week eighty four >> "Gesture"

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Hemphill, did I show you this drawing?










a lil' sketchy sketch in my journal right now.... I did it while watching SNL with my lil bro Xman.

here are some details (click for large view):

Z page from this week is "gesture" ...reminds me that these lines I draw, are like a map of my inherent brand of gesturing. the drawing is the capturing of what I'm drawn to and what is drawn out of me. you made the drawing on Z page of me singing, yes? O yes, there it is the date at the bottom of Z page, my performance with Novocaine at the derby the summer I moved to los angeles... wow and now we are in 2012. well what a page then to start off this year, as major moves are in the works this year for me and my singing... stay tuned!

∞ ceci
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